Some lessons are meant to be learnt.

The power to where you going is where you are. I became a stay home mother because of un employment I started small businesses all failed. I failed at everything I tried. I became so good at failing. Then I realized the power of purity, I then began shifting, "what was it that I wasn't doing right"?. I needed to clear my mind my soul, everything about me because clearly there was something standing in the way, because in my mind I can see where I want to be and its possible, in my spirit it was achievable but reality, I was going nowhere.

I needed to relax and look around me, where am I? what is happening with me? at that point nothing. accept I was failing myself. why. I was making the wrong decisions, I wasn't listening to where I am am, what is, that was needed. That's when it all began.

Like I said purity was needed. I needed  purity in my spirit,  what was God saying.

I began praying more, staying in the will of God, I needed to be holy to be able to here the voice of God clearly and then God began speaking his wisdom.  I then realized my valuable weapon, to be able to hear God speak and God does just speak he takes you to his space to be able to speak to you. I knew Gods times of speaking to my life.  So I made time for spirit of God. God began to fill me with so much wisdom and also in the middle of the night that's where God speaks to me especially in teachings.  He teaches me the ways of life and fills me with wisdom. The fairness in what I thought was not, like going through what I was going through, I then realized the lessons in it.

because God was there with me he was the reason I was there, to teach me everything to give me purpose to find myself. Then I realized why I was down and out some lessons are meant to be learnt we cannot run away from them.